It's labour day tomorrow, been yearning for tomorrow to come. I'm so stressed up by all those o level stuff. I'm gonna go out walk tomorrow, everything will be at the back of my mind except thinking where to go next.
Don't touch it already, don't spoil your health. Take good care of yourself, my love.
为什么明明想靠近却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定 努力开拓话题
最后却溃不成军
为什么如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛 怎么都是你
你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过 告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑能告一段落
你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我快乐还是寂寞
I had let you go for the first time.
I thought I'll grab it tightly for the second chance.
I never knew it would turn out this way.
I know we don't feel happy being this way.
I don't want us to end it in bad way.
I really wanted to walk with you till the end.
I have been pondering if you'd be better off without me.
I would leave if you could be happier.
I never want to be the one making the decision.
I never regret knowing you, being in love with you, being hurt by you.
我还能付出什麽 除了爱你我一无所有
每当你受挫 我想我比谁都难过
因为我爱你 虽然我从来不说
Met up with Babyliew and went to school together. Lessons, sst. After sst, went home with Babyliew and Jing.
Upon knowing those news, I'm quite shock by it. I've been pondering what's behind the drastic change in you. Neither do I understand, nor a need to understand. But, you certainly have no idea how many youngsters yearn to have a family like yours. Not every youngster could receive the amount of love that your family showered you with. I can tell that they are utterly disappointed by your recent actions. If one day, you land yourself into some deep shit, you lost friends who you could depend on, who are you going to turn to? Don't regret it if your family ever gives up on you. I know I'm not in any position to say that and pardon me for saying so much.When you talked to me, you said that I seems to give you cold shoulder.
So, I've tried to talk more, and now you seems to give me cold shoulder.
Can you give me the slightest clue what's on your mind.
I don't like the feelings of not knowing how you feel or what you think.
Went to school with Babyliew. I felt so lethargic in class today. Headed home after school to change and met up with Babyliew. Jing joined us later on. Then, we went to Mos Burger. Studied, laughed, nonsense. Home sweet home at 7 plus.
Looking through your eyes, there’s nothing to hide.
And you’re no longer mine.
How could I survive when you say goodbye.
We used to be so fine when you walked into my life.
I tried to reach out for you just to be with you .
Met babyliew at Causeway Point. Coincidentally, we wore similar outfit from head to toe except for our hoodie. We went to Mos Burger and studied for 6 solid hours. I broke my record man. Finished studying at around 7, went to buy some sushi and headed back home.
I got locked outside my house, because I didn't bring keys and my whole family went out. They are kind enough to get someone back to open the door for me. Put down my things, went down stair to meet ts. Talking to him, I don't know should I laugh or get dulan. Slacked till 9 and went home.
Heaven is playing with me. Don't crack a joke like this, I can't take it.My babyliew
Went to school with Babyliew today. Lessons. After school, headed home to change. Went to Causeway Point to meet Weihao and Kenneth. Babyliew came later on. Slacked around till 5 plus and hsh.
He never fails to pua stupid stunts. -.-
Even if people thinks I'm foolish. But I'd still follow my heart.
I can't bear to see you in pain or suffering, I can't bear to leave you alone.
I truly hope that you and your family would be alright.
I'm sorry for yesterday that I'm actually asking for obvious answer, but my mind was in a mess, knowing that you faced such situation and don't know how to comfort you.
If you have decided, I'll just respect and follow with it. I'd never leave you, but I'd not stop you from leaving me.
Because, as long you're happy. It's okay for me.
Tell me how can I be stronger? So many words of love.
Headed to school with Peilin.
After school, went home to change and meet Peilin for KFC.
After lunch, went to school for NAPFA 5 station.
I did better than I expected.
Retreated home after NAPFA, was kinda tired actually.
& I think I'll suffer from muscle aches tomorrow.We used to be as one, now we're individual ones.
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Just looking back at my old photos. It's amazing I have gotten so far. Looking at our laughter, those days, those bond. It's what i missed, but it will never be the same. It will be the best part of my memories. Take care, my friends.
*Don't get stunned, seeing this photo here.I know some people really concerned about me. A lot people drifted away from me. Jefferson, Xiaoqin, Tabitha. I missed those times, you would listen to me. Peilin, Loojing and Zhian, I never thought we could be closer than normal friends, I do treasure the times we're together.
I'm sorry for the cold shoulder I gave you. I don't want to disturb you and I wanted to give you some space of your own. But, I didn't know you felt/think more than that. Will you and me have the future of ours? The insecurity.
Reality and dreams could never be on the same line. Sometimes it hurts to face reality, but being given no choice. This doesn't refers to anyone, just my thoughts.
Overdue.I was closer to you than anyone because of my insecurity. Why didn’t I realize it at that time? Your figure slipped out of my sight before me. I didn’t say the only, single thing I wanted to – Don’t leave me.
A twisted, crooked heart like this. I hate it so much that I don’t know what to do. What I knew at this late hour is that this is all I’m thinking about: Why is it that I needed you?
The two of us noticed the break approaching our closeness. Unlike what the heart said, the words were dull - Goodbye.
The hurting, unkind hand of when such a day comes. This ugly soul, like yesterday, I hate it even more.
I was fiddling with my webcam just now. I left home only at 3.30pm, went down to Causeway Point to meet Rachael. Walked around there till 7 plus.
Thanks to Lpl and Swk for last night, when I f*cking broke down. I guess I'm tired of faking. No, I'm not as carefree or strong as I may seems to show. There's reasons for me not showing what I truly feel. And, this will never change. Never.
I have lost too much. In the end, I'm left with nothing.
I'm locked inside with fear and darkness.
I'm getting better, thanks people. Talked on phone with Wk till midnight. Surprisingly, I managed to wake up in time. Met up with Peilin and went to school together. Overall, 4 out of 7 periods free, slacking day man.
Headed home and later on, went down to Causeway Point to meet Peilin and Jing. We went to buy our ticket and had our lunch. There we go, for our movie - 17 Again. It's a hilarious movie and it's worth watching. Of course, Zac Efron is hot. After the movie, slacked around and headed home.
委屈时候 没有你 陪着我心痛 一直忘了说 我有多感动
Been tossing and turning last night, before i managed to get my sleep. Met up with Peilin this morning and went to school together. Has 2.4 NAPFA run, managed to pass it.
Accompanied Jing and Kenneth to Causeway Point, to get their upper cartilage pierced. Their expression amused me, seriously. Weihao came over to meet me, Jing and Kenneth left first. Slacked with Weihao till 7 plus and hsh.
I still love you like i always do, missing you like i always do. I miss those past when we are so close. I said before, I'll always be there as long as you need me. Yes, i still mean it now. I don't want to do things that you don't like, because I want you to be happy. It's the first time I don't know how to make you to laugh for the past 2 days. Every word I said to you counts. Will we be back, that close again?
It hurts to hold on, but I still want to go on.
我还是介意你的话 总在无意间变化介意你对爱的想法 和我有了分岔我介意你没忘了她 介意你还放不下该迁就还是一笑而罢
I only slept at going to 1am in the morning. Being a hero uh, talked on phone with Wk. And being a panda in school, I slept during maths and assembly period.
Happy birthday, Zhian baobei. Celebrated his birthday after school at Causeway Point's Sakae Sushi for buffet! Zhian, Peilin, Loojing and me ate 41 plates, 7 bowls, mochi ice cream. After 1st round, Peilin and me claimed that we're full, wanted to have a walk. We went down to buy a small cake for Zhian, and went back to give him. We're all so full that we can't stand straight or laugh vigorously. We even compared the size of our tummy, which made my laugh till i can't stand properly. Loojing and Zhian left first.
Zhian, I hope you will like the present from Peilin and me.
Peilin and me met ts and went to badminton court to slack. I said nothing about my mood but both of them could sense it. When we headed home, both sms me asking about my mood. I thought I hid it well. Even on msn, I didn't said much, Wk and Jeff could sense I'm sad/unhappy. I think it's due to fatigue. Well, I'm sorry to spoil the atmosphere.
I'll just post photos and have a good rest. Love.
I thought I finally could leave the house, for goodness sake. Was SUPPOSE to meet up with Jasmine, Mingyong, Aaron and Xinrong. Yes, it was cancelled. I'm feeling so depressed that I got stuck at home for 2 days.
It's either you get hurt by one whom you loved deeply, or you hurt one whom loved you deeply.
Time is passing so slowly. I have gotten so frustrated, thinking what should i do for the day. I finally decided to go to the badminton court near my house, sit there and stare blank. It ended up raining, it totally spoilt my mood. I left my house only for dinner and headed back home again. What a day.
I believe in giving second chance. If no one gives a second chance, who can change for the better. One gets stuck in the current situation, being given no chances. How could one turn over a new leaf. Life, it's all about give and take.
Or, maybe what I'm hoping for was too much.
It's good friday. Woke up quite early, and spend hours rotting before I went to bath and head out to Causeway Point at 1.30pm to meet Peilin. We walked around and ended up decided to train to Boonlay. We walked around Jurong Point for an hour or so. We got bored of there and trained back to Woodlands. We're just wasting our money. -.-
We just simply walked around Causeway Point, Ajisen for dinner. I saw alot of familiar faces. We walked till 8 plus going to 9. My legs gonna break soon. Pathetic right?
Oh ya, tag more people. My tagboard seems so dead. Don't let my tagboard die on me alright? :D
I didn't attend school today. Talked on phone last night till 12 plus and slept till 9 plus in the morning. Was using computer till 12. I went to take a shower and walked to Causeway Point to meet Rachael. Walked, slacked at there. Initially, I didn't want to head home early because I don't feel like it. My legs die on me, so we retreated home at 6 plus.
Meeting Peilin tomorrow. Looking forward, cause we're going for date. :D
Everything you said, no matter how harsh it is. I knew you said it because you lost control. No matter how pain it is, I'll tolerate. Because I care and I love. Even though, it hurts alot. What's over is already over.
How i felt, I couldn't let you know. I didn't want you to suffer anymore. You had enough of all this suffering. I will only want you to get yourself a better and peaceful life. I'll keep it all in my heart. Fate have everything planned out. We'll leave it to fate. Whatever will be, will be. I'm still trying hard to take it easy.
Went to school with Peilin today. School stuffs. After school, went home to change and met up with Peilin, Zhian & Jasmine. They made my day, laughing. I really enjoy their company, know? :D
Zhian kept on taking videos and photos of us. Yeahs, hell lot man. Just take a look at some of the photos. Of course, due to it's all candid shots, tolerate with some fugly photos alright. I wanted it to be the memory of the day on how happy/enjoyed we were. Look at all our smiles, it's not that frequent that we're facing whole lot of problems daily, and so I'll treasure it even more.
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Attached to my sexy 唐定杰.
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