hellos x: just got back my comp . sent t fix last 2 dayys . now left with chem, chi ppr2, poa pp2 & emaths ppr 2 . im gonna game for th whole june, i suppose .
last 2 days, without comp . tks t jon cutie & jeff kor pei me chat on fone & sms . if not im gonna die of boredom .
Vivian Girlfren♥ ; aft reading wht u wrote, i have th same feelings . i know we're drifting apart :/ i know its my fault cuz im have not been speaking up for weeks le . i know dat i have nt been spending time with u guys, &instead whn u all jio me out now, i kip rejecting . i also know it's lyk we walk tgt just lyk a routine we alw does . i understand why u wont ask me, cuz u alw get th same answer . sorry for not talking much t u guys tday, i know im moody tday . girlfren, thou sometimes, im kinda cold twards ppl or wht . but gib me some time, aft dat i'll b fine le . but aftall, i still love u de :D
Rach Darling♥ ; darlingg, sry i din mean t give u dat face tday . sry for nt hanging out with u guys . this friday will go out with u guys de alrite . lyk times, we go out slack & go ur hse play mahjong . it's also not lyk wht u say uh, i also got tell u de, nt only t jes . &dun worry, i still love you .
Jialin Laogong♥ ; laogongg, not i dont tell u anything lyk wht rach say . whn i alw want t tell u, u got over-xcited over him . then i see le sian diao, duwan say le . sry for being for so dao tday :/ i know u're concern of me, saying those lame stuffs making me t laugh . but i hv got nth t say, so i kip quiet alrite . im very sorry, & i love you :D
&ciao, ppl {:
- 6:56 PM
Asked to do this quiz by ; Meijun keai ♥
1. What's your name ? -чєєsнιєи ♣
2. What dose your friends call you ? - Shien :D
3. What time is it now ? - 6.58 pm .
4. If you could change your eye color , what would it be ? - Brown ._.
5. How many pillows on your bed ? - Two :x
6. Who was the last text message you sent to ? - Jefferson Kor .
7. What color is your shirt right now ? - White .
8. Who's the fourth person on your contact list ? - Afiq .
9. When was the last time you cried ? - Duwan t mention .
10. What school are you in ? - Admiralty Secondary School .
11. Do you have a crush ? - Nahhs .
12. Who was the last person that made you laugh ? - Jon cutie :D
13. How long is you hair ? - idk, just long .
14. What was the longest time you ever slept ? - 12 Hours .
15. Have you seen your bestfriend cry ? - Yeahs .
16. What thing you can't stand ? - Feeling helpless .
17. What you wanna do now ? - Play maple ? ._.
18. Would you sleep at a friend's house or have them over ? - Both ;D
19. When was the last time scolded someone ? - Idk .
20. Would you like you friend to do this too ? - Anything .
21. Then ask 5 of your friends to do this test . - Anyone will do [;
Saturday, April 26, 2008 - 9:18 PM
hellos .
thurs; watch finish th last epi of hei tang ma qi duo . &i start doing maths for 3 hours for th night . i proudly told ppl i did maths for 3 hrs, &everyone reaction was :O ! x.X
friday; mye starts xO had eng ppr 1, section 1 idk wht topic t choose &i write crap D: e.maths ppr 1, left out 1 qn, nt enuff time . i dont think dat i can pass it .
went out with jes, rach & jialin aft exams . jialin had sc stuffs, nid t do it in th library . in th end, we decided nt t catch th movie . we bought 4 bar of hershey choco, 85% dark choco & 4 mineral water . then went t library, picnic while waiting for jialin . played psp & crapped with them till 5 plus . & went t causeway pt, walk, sit @ 6th floor chat . &aft dat went home .
today; jialin, rach & viv jio me out t study . luv & jiejin jio me out t celeb bday . but, i have decided t home-d for this wkend . i have been gg out on every wkend since this yr .
chatted with alot of ppl tday . jialin, kianhau, jon, jeff, junxian, luv & jumaah . th rest i forget le .
&suddenly thot of mingyong . nd i called him t chat, feeling kinda guilty . we're very close but ending of last yr, i start t neglect him . he's been my listening ear & advisor for alot of stuffs . i'm gonna contact him more often, duwan neglect my dear xiaoge .
mug hard for mye okayyyyys, ppl . so, ciao :D
Saturday, April 19, 2008 - 9:22 PM
hellos .
ytd ; aft skl, rush home t chg clothes . saw alson, jorrence, junhong & jiaan . alson asked me go lip pierce with him, lols . then rushed home t chg & rush out, see alson & jorrence agn . meet jeslyn aiai, vivi girlfren, jialin laogong & rach darling . we eat kfc & went t pasar malam gaigai & old wdlands t buy stuff . &went t rach hse t slack & we played mahjong ;D aft dat went t kfc for dinner agn ._. tks all my dearests, without them i dont seems t b happy .
tday ; met jialin & viv for breakfast at 7am . then eat finish, walk t skl for flag day . collected tins & went off t admiralty place . &stand at th streets awhile & went off t cuzway pt . &went t mac t slack for 1-2 hrs .
aft dat, went home t chg . then meet luv, apple, jefferson, dawen, jiejin & jiejin fren . dey suppose t go escape de then all come woodlands find me . dey live at sengkang, boonlay & tampines de, suuper touch . &we go arcade, then eat & watch forbidden kingdom :D aft watchin forbidden kingdom, we went outside cwp t slack jeff, jiejin had catfight, we tickle jiejin x: then we went t mos burger t drink, we crapped alot, jiejin moustache only shave half & jeff, dawen gt muscles x: then, stand outside cwp slack awhile more . jeff & jiejin gettin high over, no father day nd colour of underwear . &we all went off, i'll post th cat fights videos soon .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JIEJIN . made u have those small bleed, blueblacks & scratches . but i rly enjoyed ehh, jiejin th half moustache boy :D tks for all th lame, crappy & horny stuffs . tks for mking me enjoy my days with u guys, loveees . reach home at 9 plus, dats all, ciao .
Wednesday, April 16, 2008 - 9:17 PM
hellos . seeing dem being lyk, i cant help . dey're lyk dat, but all i can do is t tell them i'll b there for them . dey matter alot t me, but whn dey nid help, i cant help . i hate myself for nt being able t do anyt . i hate myself for being so helpless&useless .
one by one starting t ask me, whys i so quiet, being emo . ytd, during free period, i rather sit alone than sit in groups & talk t dem . ytd, saw mingyong, he asked me why i see him lyk a stranger . idk wht t answer him . tday, jumaah asked me whys i look so glum & asked me t cheerup . i gave her a smile, she said im giving a fake smile . idk wht else i can do, idk wht's wrong with me . just dont bother t open my mouth & talk . i can only talk more t ppl i can open my heart t . im rly so sick of life .
Monday, April 14, 2008 - 7:42 PM
hellos . this post is for wht jialin said t me . on th way home, she said t me dat i have chged . well, its human nature t change . just dat whether t th positive or negative side . the only thing dat wont chg is chging . regardless of attitude, thinking, behaviour & stuff .
i know i have chg more t th negative side . she also said dat i'm being more emo . &previously aloy asked me why i'm so emo or dao him . i know dat i tend t emo & have moodswings . just dat i cant control myself, im sorry . but chongjialin, i still do care for you . kayys, dats all . ciao .
im getting more emotionally weak . i have no hope in life, no will t live, just waiting t die . but wht can i do ? this is life . you cant get wht u want, u get wht u dunwant . &so, the day dat i would b happiest is whn i step into my coffin .
Sunday, April 13, 2008 - 1:58 PM
im updating my blog finally aft 1 wk of rotting . okayys lar, this shud b my longest post ever :/ it's on ytd chalet, celebrating luv jie bday . since dno whn of last yr till this yr, i nbr felt so happy before . never felt so alive, so active, so happy before . ppl who went are, me, jefferson kor, luv jie, apple, inu, alvin kor, weiwen kor, bunny, mel, pofmek, selang & jiejin .
went t meet jefferson kor at jurong mrt at 10am . aft dat, took mrt t pasir ris & go t whitesands help jeff t find gift for luv jie . then, we took bus t costal sands, suppose t b downtown east de, but went t pasirris de ._. this is th result of 2 lu chi on th run :x whn we walking t downtown east, coastal sands, it started t rain . whn we reach dte, coastal sands, apple alr waiting for us alr . then we were told dat luv jie was emo-ing . we entered th room & i pei luv jie, trying t cheer her up .
aft dat, me, jeff, alvin & weiwen was chatting non-stop . then, me, jeff, weiwen, alvin, pingguo, bunny, mel & pof starting t play games, lyk blackjack, taidi, cheat & many others & also bully bunny . we also made a rule of bunny shuffling card, t mk bunny shuffle cards for all games . aft dat, got bored being in th room, dey went t play billiard . jeff & me cant go in, but we sneak in cuz we're under 16 . dey started playing & we sit at th side . ltr on, a staff came t check ic, then we bobian & left, weiwen accompany us .
we went t sit sit & drink water, dawen treat us xP then we went bck t room & played wii with luv, inu & apple . luv jie & me was tickering jeff kor till he bth . he kip blocking his face from camera & shaking . super funny, from one side of th room roll till th otr side . played bowling games till th rest came bck . aft dat we started t play wii musical games . jeff & bunny is so talented in music siol, we're eating pizza . somehow, for sometimes, me & jeff was emoing & talking bout xinshi .
aft dat, inu de bunny game mk me laugh lyk hell . can shoot carrot juice, slap bunny & let bunny suicide . alvin & me was th best wii combination patner of th night . it either he aim, i slap or he aim, i shake . super fun . &then we're starting t clear food but eating those . then at 11 plus, my dad came t drive me home . all of them sent me off, super touched larr ;D the vid & pics will shows hw fun it is, hw many crap we gave .
this vid feat how jeff played wii musical games . ppl inside th video consist of jeff, bunny, dawen, tako, luv .
this vid feat how apple & pofmek plays wii boxing game . pofmek is th one stading with white shirt . notice hw t use th wii t box :x
jeff being bullied & playing wii . &ciao, i love you guys :D
Sunday, April 06, 2008 - 7:33 PM
hellos . went out th whole day tday . meet peilin, amelia, qiuhua, mich & helen @ woodlands mrt . then we went t jurong de city harvest church for service . hmm, quite fun actually, hope next sunday can go agn . made 2 new frens, helen & yiwen, dey super frenly & pretty .
suppose t meet dat jefferson de . he ps me, i pao dao boonlay le, still ps me . then we went t eat at coffeeshop . &peilin nd me went t walk at jp while th rest go bck . we super bored at jp so, we went bck t cwp . from 4 plus walk till 6 plus & homed . from peilin & i meet till we left, we have been talking alot . been a long time since we last went out tgt . hope dat next week can also go chc :D so, dat's all for tday, ciao !
Friday, April 04, 2008 - 8:37 PM
&this is to my dat kor . sorry i think i have disappoint u . i din mean it, just dat cant b controlled . this whole day, i'hv been thinking bout disappointing you . you're nt a bad example or wht . i'm aint dat gd dat u xpect me t be . real sorry, but you're still my dearest kor ♥
- 8:19 PM
hellos . aft skl, went out with alot of ppl . jeslyn, rach, jialin, viv, jeanette & 5n3 ppls . went t admiralty kfc t eat, jeanette said th wrong things, hais . went away with jes & rach for awhile t do stuffs . then went bck t kfc, jeslyn unwrapped all her presents & she cried . th card she gave me made me so damn touched, ily so much can .
aft dat, walked t rach hse . on th way, we're learning t do stunts with lighter . &im so gonna learn t do those stunts from lucas . jes & i was still laughing at wht we said last night . jes use guniang style, i use shien style & lucas use man style t flick . sit under her voiddeck, waiting for her t chg . then took bus t my hse there, slacked awhile, nd th thing totally sucks . then they went t my hse de voiddeck & waited for me . went home t bath & chg .
then, we walked t cwp, slack slack . saw meiyan few times, been long time since last seen her . aft dat, left cwp, gave jes a big hug before we left . jes rmb th promise we made tday, i'll b waiting for th day . loveeees, ciao .
Thursday, April 03, 2008 - 10:15 PM
hellos .
aft sst went t cwp with jes & rach . aft dat went home, then went out with lucas . walk for long time, then finally bought th present . then lucas bought 100 bucks out, so he treat me yoshi & hi-chew . aft dat, we went t find jeslyn hse t find her . sit at th playground, slack & do some stuff . then dey accompany me home & then go home .
sorry for unable t do anything,seeing u lyk dat . sorry for being so useless, cant even b up t some help . hope its just lyk wht tab say its a horrible dreams . if it is then i wanna wake up asap, idk wht else i can do . waiting there for u . D':
Wednesday, April 02, 2008 - 6:48 PM
hellos D: this post is specially for dat girl . i cant tell out her name, she know it herself .
girl, i have alw treasure th time we're tgt . i din xpect you t leave so fast, i rly will miss you de . you were th one who meet me b4, aft skl everyday & went out tgt on weekend . you were th one who lent me ur shoulder . you were one of my first priority . you were one of those i trust th most, there's nth you dno bout me . dont forget dat i'll always b there for you & lent u my shoulder . dont forget dat u promise me dat you wouldn't chg in th future . dont forget dat u promise me dat you would call my every night if possible . dont forget dat u promise me dat you would come t find me on every fri . dont forget dat u promise me dat you would jio me out often .
tday on th way home, sit with u in bus . talk t you & stuffs, i rly feel lyk crying . being troubled for so many days & knowing u're leavin . it's th first time, i tell u i would miss you & i rly mean it . everytime u told me t miss you & i said i wont . i know you wouldn't b happy if this continue, so i'd rather you b happy, dont forget me . i will rly treasure this few days left for me & you . girl, i will miss you & love you♥
Tuesday, April 01, 2008 - 10:56 PM
hellos .
dno wht t post . i wanna tks alot of ppl :/
tks jeslyn, rachael, jialin, peilin, vivian & jasmine . be there t listen t me, confort me, lent me their shoulder . tks jefferson & xiaoqin for nt leaving me whn im rly helpless, whn im sad, dey wait for me t slp b4 they do, call me thou i kap their calls . tks jeanette for covering me & hugging me all th way t klassrm tday, trying her best, but thou she made it abit worst :/ tks alson & minyan for cheering me up, by cracking all kind of jokes . tks joyce for kip zihighing, nt mking me feel low . tks kianhau for conforting me thou he din know wht happen . tks jason for conforting me, asking me am i alright . &lastly, without them i dno wht am i now .
i understand everything now, i din give up . but all i can say now is, if it's meant t b then we'll b tgt . if it's nt then i have no idea wht t do le . ): 有一种爱还埋藏在我心中 我只能把你放在我的心中 这一种想见不敢见的伤痛 让我对你的思念越来越浓
Attached to my sexy 唐定杰.
