Okay, I feel so uncomfortable posting while my mother was reading what I type. Some curious mother, I'hv got.
School days. Interesting stuffs started during remedial. I sat with Loojing. She's always being very crap as per normal. She planned that she wanted to get married on 14 February 2016. People remember this date, let's see if it really goes along well with her plan. We have been irritating each other.
Loojing: I'll get married on 14th February 2016.
Me: Later you can't get married on that day, i chio ka peng.
Loojing: I'll get married on 14th February 2016. (Repeat*)
Me: You think you want to get married on that day jiu can ah? People also want that day what.
Loojing: I'll go book early.
Me: You know how to book early, other people don't know how to ah?
Loojing: I'll go book even early.
Me: You know how to book even early, people don't know how to ah?
And of course, she got owned by me, and finally silence for only awhile. -.-
There she goes, planning on her future babies names and calculating which year to give birth. She's like so superstitious, assuming that baby born in the year of monkey will be very mischievous. And, I'm also cracking my brain just to help her think of names, from A-Z. In conclusion, we have gone bonkers!
Of course, although she's so irritating. She have got her ways to make my day, in a irritating way. Lil irritating fellow.
I were planning to go home already, just nice Rachael gave me call. So, I went to slack with Rachael and met Weihao too.
It's April fool day tomorrow. Beware and don't get pranked. Okay, I'll stop here and get on reading my Breaking Dawn.
One week left, I'm anxious yet afraid.
Monday blues. I can't describe that kind of feeling, It just feels like, It's school AGAIN.
Jasmine came to my house after school. I went to take a shower and went out to Causeway Point with her. Met up with Cassandra and she showed us a video and invited us for Easter day, and she left awhile later. Chiehua came to meet us, she gave us gifts that she bought. Peilin also joined us. We just simply walked around and keep talking.
Look at the rose at the top of the post. When I first saw it, I thought it was merely a rose. Until, Chiehua mention that it's a chocolate. I was like huh?! Imagine me biting the 'rose' chocolate out of the stalk, laughs!
Oh ya, I added a song with the starting part saying touch me repeatedly. If you find it sickening or irritating, then i suggest you mute your speaker or pause the song. Just in case. :D
I have been cracking my brain, thinking of what should I update about.
I'll start with what i did today. Around noon, I went to take a shower and when I'm back in my room. I saw my mom reading my blog. I was like uh, how she got to my blog. She claimed that she wanted to go to some website but she clicked randomly and landed at my blog. She even asked questions like, is blogging that fun? She commented that my English ain't that bad.
Met up with Rachael at Causeway Point, and we studied at Mos Burger. Hours later, Loojing came to join us with his brother. Soon, I got so distracted and decided to stop studying. We ended up walking around. They even played the 'roller coaster' machine at Timezone. I was like no, I will never land myself in that machine. Later on, Loojing left first. Rachael also need to go meet her mother so, I went home.
It's Friday. It's always the last day of the weekdays that I find school time hard to pass. Met up with Rachael at Causeway Point. We walked around and bought a top from Purpur. We walked till 6 plus and I went home first.
I headed to town with my parents for dinner and Singapore Flyer. My mother insisted me to accompany them for the Singapore Flyer. She knows I'm reluctant to. After the ride, she even asked me, 'So, did you regret going for the Singapore Flyer?' I disappointed her with 'It doesn't makes a difference.' Aww, she wasted 20 over bucks just for my one sentence. But I think she enjoys my company. We retreated home at 10 plus, it's a tiring day alright. After finish posting, I'll have my beauty sleep for my complexion.
I fear for the future to come. My bleak future.
The only thing worth mentioning today was I wanted to go home so much, but I can't due to the heavy rain. I kept singing this song 'Hui Jia'(Go Home), an old song to Loojing to irritate her, show her how much i missed home. I also sang it to Xiuxian. Laughs.
My life is so screwed. I know I'm always whining about my problems. But it's the only way I can relieve myself. So bear with it alright?
'You can't have both. You gain one and you will lose one.' quoted by
LooJing. Yes, it's definitely true. Being greedy brings us to no where, but losing either sides. I will get over with my stupid friendship problems, soon enough. And so, I gained back a close friendship with
Peilin. Moral of the day, don't be greedy, otherwise you will be the one who lose out.
Oh ya. I'm finally meeting out with Rachael tomorrow. I think it would be nice seeing her, as this bitch have been craving to meet me.
Tomorrow will the first week since he went in. Another two weeks to endure. With my loved ones around, I would be able to do it.
Hellos. I'm surprised that my nuffnang earned another pathetic 20 cents. Some kind soul help me click on my ads lea. Laughs.
Spend my day off in school and stuffs. And I'm re-watching 'My Lucky Star' , I still remember I cried almost on every episode the first time i watched this. Sounds like some foolish girls know? But I just love how the storyline goes. I don't consider it wasting my time. :D
Can time pass faster?*
I'm suffering insomnia. Last night, I decided to turn in early. But, I'm tossing and turning for hours. My mind kept running wild, some would know the reasons. I feel like
I'm mentally tortured.
Met up with usual co. for breakfast. Headed to school and left school early at 12. I went back home to bath and prepare. Flagged a cab with mother, and headed down to
SGH. Attended my backbone checkup. Not much improvement either, wasted time at
xray center. And, still I have to go back for upcoming checkup. Cab back home later on in the day.
Absence make the heart grows fonder, quoted by
LooJing. It really describes how
I'm feeling. When he is around, I don't miss him that much compare to now. I'll be waiting for you to be out.
I'm having a no life life, contradicting? From last week Friday till this week Friday, I have been going to Causeway Point continuously. 1 week 7 days, I meant ALL 7 days. Just that, I have been there with different groups of people. And yesterday, I finally had some rest. Today, I went to Causeway Point again, with Rachael. Just walked around and slacked around. No life, ain't it?
I'm losing faith in humans, I mean myself too. My mind can't stop thinking about this. Look at people around. Everything started so nicely, with nice words like forever. Yet, ended like no body's business. Just simply looking at couples around us, some just broke up and everything yesterday could mean nothing today. Not just relationships, same goes to friendships. I'm worrying for my life in future. It just feels like hanging on a thread that is going to break anytime. Can I take all this obstacles?
Hello. I stayed at home for today. Alot people came asking me why i didn't go out today. Am I like those who always go out ? wink*
Lucas thinks that I have changed. Changed into a hard-hearted person that wouldn't get upset easily yet don't show emotions easily. Am i like that now? I don't have the answer either.
I'm missing him like hell man. One day is like one year.
Some random shit from an idiot made me laugh my ass out !
What a great day i have got.
He went in already. It's okay, I'll wait for him. Just that I'm missing him like fcuk now. At least he managed to contact me before he go in.
Family, I don't know what the hell is going on. They just keep suspecting me this and that. It just pissed me off, they cant just give me the basic trust.
Friends, I have such great friends, walking off for those stuffs. Not just today, I always knew how all this shit feels like. Just that, I have been quiet all this while. You guys just don't have that social awareness of how people around feels. Not only I feel that way, try asking those who have already left. They know it as much as I do, just that they chosen to keep quiet and drift away. I only feel that I'm no longer NEEDED in that group anymore. People even telling me, they just come for me out of boredom.
Boohoo. Met up with rachael at causeway point. Sorry for waiting for half an hour. Walked around causeway point till 7 plus. Saw alot of familiar face like Peilin(s), Andy, Yongji and etc.
I'm on the phone with you. Smexy voice, laughs.
What-a-boring-day! Having to go school, I'll complain about my laziness and being tired. Not having to be back in school, I'm complaining how bored it is being at home, I'm dying at home now. Waiting for some idiot to be back from east coast. Faster fly back lea, i can't wait to leave my pathetic house. Oh ya, I haven't bath yet but i don't smell bad okays ! >:D
Woo, my tag board seems to be alive by a bit. having improvement, laughs. I love to sms/msn/talk on fone with you. It makes me feel more alive at home. Addicted to you. I'll update when i'm back yeahs. Love, people.
Just not my day! Bad Mood! Whatever Shit! Shall not mention it. Thanks to few great people tried to cheer me. Rachael, Waikit, Jefferson, Xiaoqin, Kendrick etc.
I realised that my blogs views been increasing daily. Yet my tag board seems so dead. Tag me lah, I don't care who you are. Don't let my tag board die on me alright. If not, a second choice, click on my ads lea.
Attend social ettiquette course today. Had some talks, went to change to our home clothes and took school bus to Changi Terminal 2 for Swensen's lunch. Well, practically everyone was taking photos non-stop. Oh ya, Encheng was my social etiquette partner. I think the photos will satisfy you guys more than words right ? wink*
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It's holidays now. But just don't seems like holidays. Went to school at 10 plus for remedial. Then, went home after that. Till Jeslyn's call, asking to meet at Causeway Point. So, i went to meet Jeslyn and Weihao. Kenneth and Jialin joined us. Slacked around till 7 plus and home.
It's my life. If you want to view my blog, just jolly well view and stfu. I need no comments on how I do things. I know what I'm doing. Don't judge me because no one love to be judge right? I don't find a need to explain my reasons for every decision/thing that i have done. As long, i don't find it a problem, that's it. Please, have some respect to people. It's feel nice to be respected, aint it? By the way, I'm not pointing finger at anyone, so chill. :D
She cry cry cries in her lonely heart thinking. If there's nothing missing in my life. Then why do these tears come at night. Lost in an image, in a dream. But there's no one there to wake her up.
Don't bother trying. Ask me for the code, i'll consider to give or not.
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Hellos. I enjoyed today alot. Met up with Rachael at platform. Trained to JE to meet Jeff and trained to Bugis. We walked to Arab Street. As most shops is not opened yet, lucky we found one. Stayed there till 4 plus. It's feel so relaxing there, with food, drinks, air-con. And at that time, the whole place was only us. After that, went to Bugis Street, bought 3 tops. Man, I'm spending money like water. -.-
Many funny stuffs happened when we're drunk. I only remember that I feel happy and keep laughing. My head feel light too. Laid on bed with Jialin, she didn't want me to sleep and keeps complaining she feels hot, i think due to the alchohol. It's around 2 in the morning man. We kept on talking, but i don't know what i'm saying and giving illogical replies. There's many funny replies but i only remember this. The last thing i remember is she went to toilet and i toh already. She last longer than me. -.-
Jialin: I saw 8 moons.
Me: Why got 8 moons?
Jialin: I saw the tilam
(mattress) with moons printing and i counted 8 moons there.
(Here comes the illogical part.)
Me: Why the clothes there?
(I think i wanted to asked, why the mattress is there.)Woke up around 8 and can't fall back t sleep already. So, i'll just laid on the bed watching her sleep. Later on, she also woke up. She left at around 9 to 10, i think. Met up with Rachael at Causeway Point and studies at Mos Burger. Ate my dinner with her and walked around.
Woo. That idiot reached at 12.03am. And we're drinking now. My stomach feels hot. And I'm going to numb myself :D Loves, people. Update tmr.
Met up with usual co. for breakfast. Headed to school. After school, went home with Jialin, bath and out. Slacked around woodlands and admiralty till 9 plus. I'm waiting for this idiot to come my house. And I'm feeling so sleepy now, later drink and I'll have a good sleep. Hope this idiot reaches before i fall asleep.
My Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Wednesday been booked already, laughs. My life is so boring man.
Usual routine with usual co., I think I don't have to elaborate. Mother came for Meet-The-Parents session. I didn't received complain from teachers, instead I'm being praise for being more serious in class this year. I'll be good for this year, and don't go find trouble.
Trying to be like how we used to be in the past, is almost like impossible. I'm not just referring to relationship, but also my friendships. Friends played a important role in my life, more than relationship and family. Yet, it's always the part where I'm having problems with. I feels that no matter how hard I try, it won't go the way I wanted it to. I'm tired of trying seriously.
No one bothers anyway.
Yes,
Jeslyn was right,
'Once' is the saddest word man. Think about it, we were
once closest best friend. We were
once together. We were
once in love with each other. We were
once happy. We were
once each other's everything. Doesn't it feel sad, mentioning all these '
Once' and thinking back?
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Overdue photos, just to make my post not so wordy.I find my life means no life. Everyday repeat the same thing, so bored of it. Met up with usual co. for breakfast at 768. Headed to school. After school, walked to 768 with usual co. to slack. Rachael lent me breaking dawn, and i have got a nice story to entertain me, great.
I can't help but to sigh. How to numb all this feelings? I really have no idea, can anyone help me? Saddening that i can't make it for zouk this Sunday. My nightlife going to start soon. If nothing goes wrong. I'm going to drink till i drop this friday and I'm going to ss till i die this sunday.
Don't last minute bomb me okays ?
Met up with usual co. for breakfast. Headed to school. After school, met up with usual co. at usual slacking place again. Predictable routine, everyday.
I can feel it so clearly now. No matter how close we can be, there will always be something in between of us. It's just like we're worlds apart. But it's okay, because I have tried and with no regrets. I'll do everything i could for you and I'll always be there as long you need me. All the best for tomorrow, hope you would get light sentence.
Second post of the day. Yes, i did met up with my usual co. at the usual slacking place. Nothing much to elaborate.
Things have changed. Haish, tons and tons of running through my mind, and i couldn't express it out in just words. Indescribable feeling, hell man.
I'm back. Just to sum up everything, it's real tiring. And back just today morning, so I skipped another day of school. Maybe meeting the usual co. later on, let's see when the rain stops. But i really miss them like hell. Mia for the bloody past 3 days.
Thanks for the sms, happy yet sad. Hmm, i'll see if i'll update later on. Takecare ppl.
Met up with Jeslyn and co. for breakfast. Thanks to Jackie's call for cheering me up. Headed for school. After sst, went to 768 Mac with Vivian & Weihao. Took bus home with Peilin and i enjoy having heart-to-heart talks with her.
I'm not going to school tomorrow as I don't feel like going school and since my mom also allow me to. I'll just accompany usual co. for breakfast tomorrow morning. By the way, I'll will be off to Malaysia tomorrow afternoon.
Is fate playing with me or what ? Blog hopping and out of nowhere, i entered your friend's blog unknowingly and saw your recently photos. Got stunned for awhile and started to think about you again. Although, I'm feeling better now, compared to yesterday. Today is the second day since we last talked.
Labels: Because you're not there.
It seems like everyday wasn't a good day for me. Went home early today, cause i don't feel like slacking with such a mood.
Mother came home informing me that i need to go back to Malaysia on Friday or Saturday. Because my great grands passed away. Once i didn't update or online, it means i have went to Malaysia already.
I have got the urge to talk to you now, yet you're not there. What i'm feeling now, it just proved to me, how much you meant to me. Till now, then i have realised. Knowing how much it hurts to look back at the past, looking at your old photos. I thought i have let go of you, i thought it wouldn't hurt anymore.
Labels: 我呐喊思念 却没人听见。
Yesterday was a tough day for me. Shall not elaborate about it. Just not my day.
Today wasn't really great either. Met up for breakfast in the morning. School-ed till 6. Met up with Jialin, Jeslyn and Weihao slacked. Standard activities, everyday.
This is from the deepest part of my heart. Sorry for those who can't read those Chinese words below. It's a lyrics, and i feel so true about it. All i wanted is to remember the best part of us, a loving memory for me to reminisce. Please don't spoil that only part of memory i have for you. I'll accompany you till that day that I have promised, as long as you needs me. This 1 year ever since 22.o2, all the love and care you showered me with. Even those pain and hurt, i have gone through when you left. I have never regret anything. You're be the best part of me and the one i loved the most.
你头发上淡淡青草香气 变成了风才能和我相遇。
你的目光蒸发成云 再下成雨我才能够靠近。
我怀里所有温暖的空气 变成风也不敢和你相遇。
我的心事蒸发成云 再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你。
感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛 所以才能拥抱你的背影。
躲在安静角落如果你回头看 不用在意。
Labels: It will become the best part of me.
-'- life.i'm depressed, who knows?
Surprisingly, my msn worked today. People came telling me, i can see you online already. Think i don't have to reformat my computer.
I went to Marsiling in the morning. I bought myself a new box of contact lens, my degree increased, as expected. Headed home in the afternoon. Around 4, met up with Jeslyn at Causeway Point to buy sushi and went to the area near my house. Oh ya, I saw taufik there. Jeslyn and me slacked all the way till 8 plus. Home sweet home.
I know that you're under great pressure and stress, it's like torturing you. I'm not going through it but you, so probably i couldn't understand it that well. But, I will do anything i could, be it your listening ear, your shoulder. All i wish is things would go better for you. Your sms really made my heart aches but yet melts me.
Attached to my sexy 唐定杰.
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