Shien.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008 - 9:35 PM

hellos x:
just got back my comp .
sent t fix last 2 dayys .
now left with chem, chi ppr2, poa pp2 & emaths ppr 2 .
im gonna game for th whole june, i suppose .

last 2 days, without comp .
tks t jon cutie & jeff kor pei me chat on fone & sms .
if not im gonna die of boredom .

Vivian Girlfren♥ ;
aft reading wht u wrote, i have th same feelings .
i know we're drifting apart :/
i know its my fault cuz im have not been speaking up for weeks le .
i know dat i have nt been spending time with u guys,
&instead whn u all jio me out now, i kip rejecting .
i also know it's lyk we walk tgt just lyk a routine we alw does .
i understand why u wont ask me, cuz u alw get th same answer .
sorry for not talking much t u guys tday, i know im moody tday .
girlfren, thou sometimes, im kinda cold twards ppl or wht .
but gib me some time, aft dat i'll b fine le .
but aftall, i still love u de :D

Rach Darling♥ ;
darlingg, sry i din mean t give u dat face tday .
sry for nt hanging out with u guys .
this friday will go out with u guys de alrite .
lyk times, we go out slack & go ur hse play mahjong .
it's also not lyk wht u say uh, i also got tell u de, nt only t jes .
&dun worry, i still love you .

Jialin Laogong♥ ;
laogongg, not i dont tell u anything lyk wht rach say .
whn i alw want t tell u, u got over-xcited over him .
then i see le sian diao, duwan say le .
sry for being for so dao tday :/
i know u're concern of me, saying those lame stuffs making me t laugh .
but i hv got nth t say, so i kip quiet alrite .
im very sorry, & i love you :D

&ciao, ppl {:

- 6:56 PM

Asked to do this quiz by ; Meijun keai ♥

1. What's your name ?
- чєєsнιєи ♣

2. What dose your friends call you ?
- Shien :D

3. What time is it now ?
- 6.58 pm .

4. If you could change your eye color , what would it be ?
- Brown ._.

5. How many pillows on your bed ?
- Two :x

6. Who was the last text message you sent to ?
- Jefferson Kor .

7. What color is your shirt right now ?
- White .

8. Who's the fourth person on your contact list ?
- Afiq .

9. When was the last time you cried ?
- Duwan t mention .

10. What school are you in ?
- Admiralty Secondary School .

11. Do you have a crush ?
- Nahhs .

12. Who was the last person that made you laugh ?
- Jon cutie :D

13. How long is you hair ?
- idk, just long .

14. What was the longest time you ever slept ?
- 12 Hours .

15. Have you seen your bestfriend cry ?
- Yeahs .

16. What thing you can't stand ?
- Feeling helpless .

17. What you wanna do now ?
- Play maple ? ._.

18. Would you sleep at a friend's house or have them over ?
- Both ;D

19. When was the last time scolded someone ?
- Idk .

20. Would you like you friend to do this too ?
- Anything .

21. Then ask 5 of your friends to do this test .
- Anyone will do [;

Saturday, April 26, 2008 - 9:18 PM

hellos .

thurs;
watch finish th last epi of hei tang ma qi duo .
&i start doing maths for 3 hours for th night .
i proudly told ppl i did maths for 3 hrs,
&everyone reaction was :O ! x.X

friday;
mye starts xO
had eng ppr 1, section 1 idk wht topic t choose
&i write crap D:
e.maths ppr 1, left out 1 qn, nt enuff time .
i dont think dat i can pass it .

went out with jes, rach & jialin aft exams .
jialin had sc stuffs, nid t do it in th library .
in th end, we decided nt t catch th movie .
we bought 4 bar of hershey choco, 85% dark choco & 4 mineral water .
then went t library, picnic while waiting for jialin .
played psp & crapped with them till 5 plus .
& went t causeway pt, walk, sit @ 6th floor chat .
&aft dat went home .

today;
jialin, rach & viv jio me out t study .
luv & jiejin jio me out t celeb bday .
but, i have decided t home-d for this wkend .
i have been gg out on every wkend since this yr .

chatted with alot of ppl tday .
jialin, kianhau, jon, jeff, junxian, luv & jumaah .
th rest i forget le .

&suddenly thot of mingyong .
nd i called him t chat, feeling kinda guilty .
we're very close but ending of last yr, i start t neglect him .
he's been my listening ear & advisor for alot of stuffs .
i'm gonna contact him more often, duwan neglect my dear xiaoge .

mug hard for mye okayyyyys, ppl .
so, ciao :D

Saturday, April 19, 2008 - 9:22 PM

hellos .

ytd ;
aft skl, rush home t chg clothes .
saw alson, jorrence, junhong & jiaan .
alson asked me go lip pierce with him, lols .
then rushed home t chg & rush out, see alson & jorrence agn .
meet jeslyn aiai, vivi girlfren, jialin laogong & rach darling .
we eat kfc & went t pasar malam gaigai & old wdlands t buy stuff .
&went t rach hse t slack & we played mahjong ;D
aft dat went t kfc for dinner agn ._.
tks all my dearests, without them i dont seems t b happy .

tday ;
met jialin & viv for breakfast at 7am .
then eat finish, walk t skl for flag day .
collected tins & went off t admiralty place .
&stand at th streets awhile & went off t cuzway pt .
&went t mac t slack for 1-2 hrs .

aft dat, went home t chg .
then meet luv, apple, jefferson, dawen, jiejin & jiejin fren .
dey suppose t go escape de then all come woodlands find me .
dey live at sengkang, boonlay & tampines de, suuper touch .
&we go arcade, then eat & watch forbidden kingdom :D
aft watchin forbidden kingdom, we went outside cwp t slack
jeff, jiejin had catfight, we tickle jiejin x:
then we went t mos burger t drink, we crapped alot,
jiejin moustache only shave half & jeff, dawen gt muscles x:
then, stand outside cwp slack awhile more .
jeff & jiejin gettin high over, no father day nd colour of underwear .
&we all went off, i'll post th cat fights videos soon .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JIEJIN .
made u have those small bleed, blueblacks & scratches .
but i rly enjoyed ehh, jiejin th half moustache boy :D
tks for all th lame, crappy & horny stuffs .
tks for mking me enjoy my days with u guys, loveees .
reach home at 9 plus, dats all, ciao .

Wednesday, April 16, 2008 - 9:17 PM

hellos .
seeing dem being lyk, i cant help .
dey're lyk dat, but all i can do is t tell them i'll b there for them .
dey matter alot t me, but whn dey nid help, i cant help .
i hate myself for nt being able t do anyt .
i hate myself for being so helpless&useless .

one by one starting t ask me, whys i so quiet, being emo .
ytd, during free period, i rather sit alone than sit in groups & talk t dem .
ytd, saw mingyong, he asked me why i see him lyk a stranger .
idk wht t answer him .
tday, jumaah asked me whys i look so glum & asked me t cheerup .
i gave her a smile, she said im giving a fake smile .
idk wht else i can do, idk wht's wrong with me .
just dont bother t open my mouth & talk .
i can only talk more t ppl i can open my heart t .
im rly so sick of life .

Monday, April 14, 2008 - 7:42 PM

hellos .
this post is for wht jialin said t me .
on th way home, she said t me dat i have chged .
well, its human nature t change .
just dat whether t th positive or negative side .
the only thing dat wont chg is chging .
regardless of attitude, thinking, behaviour & stuff .

i know i have chg more t th negative side .
she also said dat i'm being more emo .
&previously aloy asked me why i'm so emo or dao him .
i know dat i tend t emo & have moodswings .
just dat i cant control myself, im sorry .
but chongjialin, i still do care for you .
kayys, dats all . ciao .

im getting more emotionally weak .
i have no hope in life, no will t live, just waiting t die .
but wht can i do ? this is life .
you cant get wht u want, u get wht u dunwant .
&so, the day dat i would b happiest is whn i step into my coffin .

Sunday, April 13, 2008 - 1:58 PM

im updating my blog finally aft 1 wk of rotting .
okayys lar, this shud b my longest post ever :/
it's on ytd chalet, celebrating luv jie bday .
since dno whn of last yr till this yr, i nbr felt so happy before .
never felt so alive, so active, so happy before .
ppl who went are, me, jefferson kor, luv jie, apple, inu, alvin kor, weiwen kor,
bunny, mel, pofmek, selang & jiejin .

went t meet jefferson kor at jurong mrt at 10am .
aft dat, took mrt t pasir ris & go t whitesands help jeff t find gift for luv jie .
then, we took bus t costal sands, suppose t b downtown east de,
but went t pasirris de ._.
this is th result of 2 lu chi on th run :x
whn we walking t downtown east, coastal sands, it started t rain .
whn we reach dte, coastal sands, apple alr waiting for us alr .
then we were told dat luv jie was emo-ing .
we entered th room & i pei luv jie, trying t cheer her up .

aft dat, me, jeff, alvin & weiwen was chatting non-stop .
then, me, jeff, weiwen, alvin, pingguo, bunny, mel & pof starting t play games,
lyk blackjack, taidi, cheat & many others & also bully bunny .
we also made a rule of bunny shuffling card, t mk bunny shuffle cards for all games .
aft dat, got bored being in th room, dey went t play billiard .
jeff & me cant go in, but we sneak in cuz we're under 16 .
dey started playing & we sit at th side .
ltr on, a staff came t check ic, then we bobian & left, weiwen accompany us .

we went t sit sit & drink water, dawen treat us xP
then we went bck t room & played wii with luv, inu & apple .
luv jie & me was tickering jeff kor till he bth .
he kip blocking his face from camera & shaking .
super funny, from one side of th room roll till th otr side .
played bowling games till th rest came bck .
aft dat we started t play wii musical games .
jeff & bunny is so talented in music siol, we're eating pizza .
somehow, for sometimes, me & jeff was emoing & talking bout xinshi .

aft dat, inu de bunny game mk me laugh lyk hell .
can shoot carrot juice, slap bunny & let bunny suicide .
alvin & me was th best wii combination patner of th night .
it either he aim, i slap or he aim, i shake . super fun .
&then we're starting t clear food but eating those .
then at 11 plus, my dad came t drive me home .
all of them sent me off, super touched larr ;D
the vid & pics will shows hw fun it is, hw many crap we gave .

this vid feat how jeff played wii musical games .
ppl inside th video consist of jeff, bunny, dawen, tako, luv .

this vid feat how apple & pofmek plays wii boxing game .
pofmek is th one stading with white shirt .
notice hw t use th wii t box :x

jeff being bullied & playing wii .
&ciao, i love you guys :D

Sunday, April 06, 2008 - 7:33 PM

hellos .
went out th whole day tday .
meet peilin, amelia, qiuhua, mich & helen @ woodlands mrt .
then we went t jurong de city harvest church for service .
hmm, quite fun actually, hope next sunday can go agn .
made 2 new frens, helen & yiwen, dey super frenly & pretty .

suppose t meet dat jefferson de .
he ps me, i pao dao boonlay le, still ps me .
then we went t eat at coffeeshop .
&peilin nd me went t walk at jp while th rest go bck .
we super bored at jp so, we went bck t cwp .
from 4 plus walk till 6 plus & homed .
from peilin & i meet till we left, we have been talking alot .
been a long time since we last went out tgt .
hope dat next week can also go chc :D
so, dat's all for tday, ciao !

Friday, April 04, 2008 - 8:37 PM

&this is to my dat kor .
sorry i think i have disappoint u .
i din mean it, just dat cant b controlled .
this whole day, i'hv been thinking bout disappointing you .
you're nt a bad example or wht .
i'm aint dat gd dat u xpect me t be .
real sorry, but you're still my dearest kor ♥

- 8:19 PM

hellos .
aft skl, went out with alot of ppl .
jeslyn, rach, jialin, viv, jeanette & 5n3 ppls .
went t admiralty kfc t eat, jeanette said th wrong things, hais .
went away with jes & rach for awhile t do stuffs .
then went bck t kfc, jeslyn unwrapped all her presents & she cried .
th card she gave me made me so damn touched, ily so much can .

aft dat, walked t rach hse .
on th way, we're learning t do stunts with lighter .
&im so gonna learn t do those stunts from lucas .
jes & i was still laughing at wht we said last night .
jes use guniang style, i use shien style & lucas use man style t flick .
sit under her voiddeck, waiting for her t chg .
then took bus t my hse there, slacked awhile, nd th thing totally sucks .
then they went t my hse de voiddeck & waited for me .
went home t bath & chg .

then, we walked t cwp, slack slack .
saw meiyan few times, been long time since last seen her .
aft dat, left cwp, gave jes a big hug before we left .
jes rmb th promise we made tday, i'll b waiting for th day .

loveeees, ciao .

Thursday, April 03, 2008 - 10:15 PM

hellos .

aft sst went t cwp with jes & rach .
aft dat went home, then went out with lucas .
walk for long time, then finally bought th present .
then lucas bought 100 bucks out,
so he treat me yoshi & hi-chew .
aft dat, we went t find jeslyn hse t find her .
sit at th playground, slack & do some stuff .
then dey accompany me home & then go home .

sorry for unable t do anything,seeing u lyk dat .
sorry for being so useless, cant even b up t some help .
hope its just lyk wht tab say its a horrible dreams .
if it is then i wanna wake up asap, idk wht else i can do .
waiting there for u . D':

Wednesday, April 02, 2008 - 6:48 PM

hellos D:
this post is specially for dat girl .
i cant tell out her name, she know it herself .

girl, i have alw treasure th time we're tgt .
i din xpect you t leave so fast, i rly will miss you de .
you were th one who meet me b4, aft skl everyday & went out tgt on weekend .
you were th one who lent me ur shoulder .
you were one of my first priority .
you were one of those i trust th most, there's nth you dno bout me .
dont forget dat i'll always b there for you & lent u my shoulder .
dont forget dat u promise me dat you wouldn't chg in th future .
dont forget dat u promise me dat you would call my every night if possible .
dont forget dat u promise me dat you would come t find me on every fri .
dont forget dat u promise me dat you would jio me out often .

tday on th way home, sit with u in bus .
talk t you & stuffs, i rly feel lyk crying .
being troubled for so many days & knowing u're leavin .
it's th first time, i tell u i would miss you & i rly mean it .
everytime u told me t miss you & i said i wont .
i know you wouldn't b happy if this continue,
so i'd rather you b happy, dont forget me .
i will rly treasure this few days left for me & you .
girl, i will miss you & love you♥

Tuesday, April 01, 2008 - 10:56 PM

hellos .

dno wht t post .
i wanna tks alot of ppl :/

tks jeslyn, rachael, jialin, peilin, vivian & jasmine .
be there t listen t me, confort me, lent me their shoulder .
tks jefferson & xiaoqin for nt leaving me whn im rly helpless,
whn im sad, dey wait for me t slp b4 they do, call me thou i kap their calls .
tks jeanette for covering me & hugging me all th way t klassrm tday,
trying her best, but thou she made it abit worst :/
tks alson & minyan for cheering me up, by cracking all kind of jokes .
tks joyce for kip zihighing, nt mking me feel low .
tks kianhau for conforting me thou he din know wht happen .
tks jason for conforting me, asking me am i alright .
&lastly, without them i dno wht am i now .

i understand everything now, i din give up .
but all i can say now is, if it's meant t b then we'll b tgt .
if it's nt then i have no idea wht t do le . ):
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
这一种想见不敢见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓